I am again reposting this from a previous year’s post. I think I might have to revisit this for myself yearly. I find it interesting to see where I’ve come from and how far I still have to go. While I think that I have been making strides in my devotion to the Lord, I know that I still fall short. Part of my struggle is busyness. I get busy with life, busy with responsibilities, busy with various other distractions, let alone my own selfishness and slothfulness. I get busy and forget the effort that I must put into pursuing a deeper communion with the Lord. No one every climbed Everest from an armchair. No one ever sailed solo around the world who was content with “good enough.” And no one ever reached the stars who was satisfied with the way of the world around them. And yet those who do these things are held in the highest regard as pursuing those things that are most valuable with the greatest effort.
And yet where are the men and women who see a deeper and growing communion with the true and living God as that which is most valuable? Where are those who would say with the Apostle that “all other things are garbage in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord?”
Jesus Himself endured the cross, despised the shame and has been highly exalted for His faithful service. We celebrate the effect of His faithful service as we reflect upon His death, burial and resurrection at Easter. And yet it is not merely the effect of His faithful service that should cause us to awe, but also His endurance to the end of that service. It is this endurance that I need to be reminded of in my own life. That I am not here for myself and my own desires. I am not here to do whatever my heart desires. But rather I am here to serve my Risen Savior, to pursue a deeper communion with Him, to see and savor the true and living God through Him and to glorify Him forever.
Father “give me the grace [and the delight] to do what you command and command me to do your will.”
December 21, 2002:
“In reading Piper’s ‘Gods Passion for His Glory,’ Edwards’ life is told and his book is included…on page 74 it talks about the difference between believing that God is holy and merciful and ‘sensing’ God’s holiness and mercy. He says that we must have a ‘true taste’ and delight in God’s mercy and holiness. I think that is what is lacking in my life…a true passion for God. What does it mean to truly hunger for and delight in God’s Glory? To sense God’s grace, mercy and holiness. I think to sense God’s holiness means to abstain from sin. Much more of it to abhor sin. [The one who] utterly despises sin is the one who truly senses God’s holiness. To sense God’s holiness I imagine is to feel the suns warm rays on a clear sunny day at the beach. To [taste the sweetness of] and feel the liquid of your favorite drink going down your esophagus. I think to sense God’s holiness is to have the hairs on the back of your neck stand on edge at the thought that though you are lone, someone is very much there with you. But not just anyone. This someone is the one whom the prophet of old spoke of as lofty and exalted. This one is the one who’s train utterly fills the temple. The one whom both the heavens and earth flee before. This one is encircled by burning lights who cry out day and night that He is holy, holy, holy. That someone who resides inside of those called by His name. To sense God’s holiness is not only to abstain from but to shudder at the thought of sin. To sense God’s holiness is to wish oneself accursed, yea even utterly destroyed due to one’s complete destitution before Him. To sense God’s holiness in totality would be to cease to exist. To be done away with. Yet to sense God’s holiness is to be flooded with more than abundant grace and mercy at the recognition of a life saved. Herein is our delight. That a holy God would be entertained by wretched, worthless sinners such as we. That a holy God would extend Himself to those wretched, worthless creatures to give them access to Himself. That a holy God would give the best that could ever be given, Himself, to worthless wretched creatures in spite of themselves. Oh the depths of the riches of the glorious grace and mercy of God in His unfathomable lovingkindness toward men!!!”
Oh for that sort of delight. For that sort of passion. I think that this is a life long pursuit. Many would probably give up in pursuing a delight in God for the difficulty of it. It is climbing the highest mountain. It is walking the longest road. And yet it holds the satisfaction of reaching its peak, or of finding your destination. It is the refreshment of a cool breeze on a hot and humid day. More than that, it is a warm blanket and a cup of cocoa (coffee for me) on a cold winters evening. More than that…it is your last – first kiss…it is the groom seeing his bride for the first time at the altar…it is the enjoyment of seeing your child for the very first time, when they take their first breath in this world…it is a good nights rest. And it is greater than that still. What is your greatest, longest lasting pleasure and delight? It is that, except infinitely more enjoyable, infinitely more holy, infinitely more glorious. To delight in God, who is the greatest good…it is unspeakable.
I long for that delight. I desire that sort of delight. The journey toward such a delight is long, and it is difficult. But it is good. It is good because that which is its aim is infinitely delightful. The pursuit of worldly gain and other such possessions is empty and shallow. It is temporary. It is flawed and soiled by sin’s stain. But God is Holy and Righteous and Good, Perfect, Glorious, Gracious, Loving, Merciful…to write the love of God is a futile endeavor. But to pursue the love of God, will never leave one ashamed.
I titled this the duty of delight, because it is a task. It is a difficult, labor some task. I could have just as well titled it the “pursuit of delight in God” or something like that. As much as I would pursue prayer for the sake of communion with God, I would more pursue delight in God. Delight in God would make all of my pursuits in God infinitely more enjoyable.
You are Gracious and Compassionate…slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness. I pray for each of my dear friends who would read this…I pray for us all, that you would create in us a heart that finds its highest joy, its greatest good in You and You alone. May our hearts be sick, as David wrote, may our hearts pant after You as a deer for water. May our souls thirst for You, the Living God, who alone possesses immortality and dwells in an unapproachable light and yet who has made Yourself known to us through Your Son, the Man Jesus Christ. May we not grow tired, may we not grow weary in seeking this. Burn His light into our hearts….burn it so that we can desire no one or no thing besides You. Let us fall in love with the thought of His appearing. Even so, Come Lord Jesus! Amen.
“O taste and see that the LORD is good, how blessed are all who take refuge in Him!” Psalm 34:8
“You will make known to me the path of life, in your presence is the fullness of joy, in your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” Psalm 16:11